Giddy Realisation
I just put Hannah's pulse oximeter on her foot. She is sleeping and her oxygen level is at 100 percent and her heart rate is down to 97. This tells me she is sleeping deeply and easily. I've been realising that I have been trusting Hannah's body to breath for a while now. This is a big step for me.
I remember going through the same thing with Gabriel as a baby. It wasn't till he was over a year old that I trusted his body to breathe for him and could let him sleep alone.
With this realisation comes a relief of pressure in my system. Parts of my body that haven't relaxed in four years are unwinding. I find myself being overwhelmed in moments of giddy sleepiness.
Of course as I been typing this the pulse oximeter keeps going off. It is having a hard time reading her heart rate. LOL
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I have never been in your situation and yet I feel like I understand completely that feeling of release. Perhaps I've not had the level of pressure for the length of time, but it seems I've felt something like that before. Or maybe you just write really well. Thinking of y'all.
Posted by: Barbara | May 12, 2008 07:21 PM